* thankful *

"He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things he has not, but rejoices for those which he has."

It is such an easy thing to get caught up in the 'I wants', but it has been my (admittedly limited) experience that those thoughts never bring happiness, only longing and worrying and anxiousness. It has been my goal recently to enjoy every bit of every day and be grateful for everything I have. It is a really, really hard thing to do. But I can tell you that, even though I have not mastered this gift (I believe it must be a gift, because it's too hard to be learned completely!) the few minutes a day that I do manage to not want and be grateful, I am much more genuinely 'me' than the times I am longing for the things to come. Right now, these moments, are the moments that will turn me into that person I want to become, and so if I can't enjoy the process, I don't think I'll have much enjoyment in the outcome. I don't have everything I dream of right now, but I have more than I could ever want, and sometimes, dreaming together and working together is half the fun, as long as the dreams don't outweigh the gratitude for the blessings.

Forgive the ramblings -- if anyone is even reading this :) It's mostly for my benefit, my ability to look back and remember the things that came to my mind for my daily 'thankfuls'.